.So we filmed our first film, 13 Minutes, this past weekend and I don't think I've had time to properly process everything but I'm going to try.
It was truly awesome and bit surreal to witness the words Traci and I wrote come to life on the camera. I was and am still awed at all the different pieces and people it takes to make it work and humbled that so many chose our project to invest their time and energy into.
However I want to be transparent for a moment because it wasn't all roses. There were times when I wanted to pull the script and say fuck it, I didn't sign up for this. The story we are telling is deeply personal for me so I felt very protective of it and alone with the weight of that burden. To be honest I just didn't feel like others truly understood the importance to me or maybe it was because I didn't properly articulate it. Either way those moments were rough. Being a first time parent and trusting someone with your newborn baby is never easy.
Then there were other times when I was I was like oh my God that was shot beautifully or that scene was acted out just how I imagined it and in those moments nothing else mattered. It was MAGIC!
With all that said I don't think I would change anything. I learned so much not just about film making but about myself and about the type of people who I want to work with or the type I don't. But most of all I learned that come what may being a filmmaker is the only thing that truly makes sense in my life.
I can't wait to for you all to see the finished product and it is my hope that it resonates with you as much as it has with us.